|My beautiful daughters 1 1/2 years ago!|
I have been waiting for the words to come to me. The mantra of my year 2013. Every year I choose words that resonate with me and guide me. It took some time this year. The beginning of the year was foggy but the words finally came to me.
I have a few reasons for this. One, my children. They are almost 3 and 5. It is so easy to be impatient with toddlers. With the noise and the mess and the constant needing something of me. But, as I watch them and marvel at their beauty, I realize how imperative it is that I am patient. With them. With myself. With my husband. Because I am teaching them how to treat themselves and others. In everything I do.
Two, my health. If you missed or are just joining me, I was in a car accident on October 29th, 2012. It could have been worse and I made out quite lucky. But I am injured and still recovering and will be for the better part of a year, in all best estimates. I must be patient with my body.
Three, the world. I am impatient for change. But someone asked me a question the other day that made me realize how patient I need to be. He asked me, "what do you want to accomplish?" Real change doesn't happen overnight. Choices do. Choices happen in a moment. And a collection of choices accomplish change. But I need to be patient.
Patience. Is it virtuous? Possibly. What I do know for sure is that it is challenging. I wish it came more naturally to me. I think very quickly, usually with too many ideas all at once. So patience requires effort for me.
I know that my starting place needs to be patience with my health. Pain is exhausting, frustrating, demoralizing, and makes a mess of life. But pain can be a source of inspiration. Pain is energy and I believe I can use this energy to heal rather than to drag me down.
For the past few days I have been somewhat unplugged. Valentine's Day was a busy holiday for me this year (thank you!) and as wonderful as it is to be busy, I needed a few days off. When I took Thursday and Friday "off" from KK work I realized it had been a long time since I had taken a few days off. And I realized how important it is for me to do so now and then. No matter what, I will never be good to myself or my family (or you!) if I don't care for me. During my few days of being unplugged I had some clarity and the words Be Patient simply came to me.
So this year, as you continue on this journey with me, I will share my progress and state of being with you as I endeavor to Be Patient. I adore you. You know that, don't you? You all really make this worth it. Thank you.